Tears.

So days are near, and this crappy feeling i'm having is not helping at all. Sigh i'm kinda happy and not happy about leaving. I'll be home sick for sure. Missing those awesome people here like my mama, my baby boy and ze girls :(((

INTERNATIONAL SCHOOL WHY YOU NO END SCHOOL LIKE NORMAL SCHOOLS!
uhh fml man. Thinking of being far far away from him makes me cry. Telling myself everything is gonna be fine and still can't help it but worry about it. WHY MAN WHY??? especially with all the girls. FML! I don't know why, but yeah. I wish you could just come with me. But i'm relief that you're going as well. At least we just have to pull through a few months i guess. *fingers crossed*

Honestly, i never thought i'll fall this hard for you. But since this had happen, i will try my very best to make things work out for us. I know this sounds like some kind of stupid fairytale and you might not believe it, but time will prove it i promise. Thinking how far we have come, how things worked out so amazing between us just made me love you more. More than you could ever imagine :) So if you ask me to throw all this away, i would rather die, cause i fell too hard this time.

Stay tuned.

Thoughts.

79 days left.
Honestly, this is the main reason why I've been so down these days. It's because the days of leaving is closer and closer.
And all I wish to do now is to spend more more more time with you.

Knowing that not be able to see you and hang out with you for months is just so depressing. Might also not be able to talk to you so much cause of the time diff. Honestly, tears fall every time I thought of it. No jokes bitch.
But remembering you said everything will be fine and we will somehow make it through and those countless promises makes me feel better. You've been great for the past 5 months and I really thank god that I have you.
You've been so patient even though I'm a pain. You're there for me all the time, especially times which I really needed you. You've been really really amazing and I couldn't ask for more.

I may not show it but I really do love you. Times with you were amazingly happy. Wished we didn't have to go through this but I guess it'll be all worth it at the end. Even words cannot describe how grateful I am. Really appreciate everything.
I didn't say it out cause I don't know how to express myself I guess.

You know who you are, and I love you to bits. I mean it.

5th today!

We have gone through ups and downs. Just very grateful that you're still here staying with me. Being so patient even though I might have made it hard for you. We've come this far and still going strong. Love you!

Thank you baby! A very very big thank you.